Today I finished what should hopefully my last piece of formal assessment for undergraduate degree. At this point in time I do not want there to a post-graduate degree, I do not want the assessments that go with it.
I have no idea if what I did will be enough. I think it might be but I would not be surprised if it isn't.
There is an incredible disconnection between myself and reality. The LSD I took after submiting my assessment piece hasn't helped make this any better.
I spent the afternoon, at least three good hours of it at least filled with optimism and hope. I cleaned the house. I read the paper and underlined little paragraphs and sentences that made me smile. I did this all while listening to Chuck Berry. That seems important to note.
Now I am listening to Ciccone Youth. I feel less optimism and there is very little here in my own words to make smile.
I still have the feeling that I can do better. I can be better. I will be better.
I am going to go watch The Exorcist now.
